Today’s return of “When Is It My Turn?” will be delayed yet another week. However, the reason this show is so important is that it deals with real life.  Upon the return of this show, we will be discussing anxiety and depression and the reality of these syndromes (diseases.)  This winter has been cruel and not only has it brought upon us a Horrendous Flu Season, but it is also adding to the anxiety and depression levels of many of us.

If you want, you can sit there and deny it, but from my seat, I am noticing I am not alone feeling the blues.

To begin with, my partner Terry who does, “When Is It My Turn,” has spent much of the past few months fighting off bronchitis.  Of all people, Terry would not back out of a show or participate in life with those she loves and cares about except for illness.  Terry gives so much of herself to others that I am not surprised she has been ill.  It is not just because Terry is a grandparent caregiver for her grandson it is her devotion to so many that wears her down.  Today is her turn to care for herself; I only wish someone else would care for her as she does for others.

“When Is It My Turn?”  should not be just about we are down and out for the count, we need to be more aware of our needs and take our turn.

Anxiety is real.  It’s a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease.  It is not unusual for an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome to cause this feeling.  These emotions can be stirred up from your past or something that is developing in your life; even if it has no connection to you.  Just turning on the news can make anyone anxious today!

Medically anxiety is defined as a nervous disorder.  You or I may be feeling excessive apprehension, uneasiness, or fear.  There are various levels of stress, however, when it becomes paralyzing that is when it is a problem, disturbing daily living.

When anxiety begins disturbing your daily routine, as it has mine, the condition can develop into depression.  Depression is when feelings of inadequacy and guilt, often accompanied by lack of energy and disturbance of appetite and sleep overwhelm you.  It’s like Alice falling into the rabbit hole.  You feel like you are spinning out of control and often the words you may use to express what you are experiencing are just as confusing to you as they are to the others.

My anxiety and depression reared its ugly head this time due to many issues:

1. The medication I was taking to control it, I was weaned off.
2. The medication I was taking to control and alleviate my migraines was changed, and one of the new drugs made me feel suicidal.
3. All this came about around the holidays when I felt lonely, vulnerable and missing my mother who died one year ago.
4. I was overworking at the radio station, turning a love for my art into a demand that I did not want to meet.
5. Worrying about Alex’s happiness, once again trying to build newclevelandradio.net while assisting him with his documentary, looking for a full-time job, and just enjoying life.
6. Concerns for my husband forced into retirement even though this is not where he wants to be now while trying to keep him smiling.
7. The long cold, snowy, grey winter has genuinely made me SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder.)

I am an open book, and I know that for me to resolve my anxiety and depression is to face it head on and allow those around me into my world.  I know that I cannot do it alone and through therapy, medication, and a willingness to get better I am on my way.  However, I will always have this condition due to a chemical disorder that must be treated.  Just like any other illness, it is real, and there is a structure for relief.

We will be discussing these issues in various broadcasts, and I am asking you to contact us to join in and share your story.  Karen at:  newclevelandradio@gmail.com

On Monday, February 12, 2018, “When Is It My Turn?” on newclevelandradio.net will proceed in a new direction.  Although we will still discuss from time to time the raising and supporting a special needs family member our focus will be on the individuals as we address the anxieties and depressions in our lives.

Everyone suffers from these conditions, but we all approach anxiety and depression in our manner.  Some of us are taught to ignore it (very difficult and for most of us impossible.)  Others are trained to let it grab you and take you down a dark, lonely tunnel.  Others express it and claw their way out of it.  But too often most of us don’t even know what IT is!

I have suffered from these conditions most of my life. However, my mother would not allow it, and she refused to acknowledge that what I was experiencing wasn’t much more than a temporary mood swing or her child being a “drama queen.”  I am not blaming my mother for not understanding because mental illness (anxiety and depression fall into that category,) was not something that was discussed, specifically among ‘good families.’

It wasn’t until the last couple of years (within the last 7) that I even realized what I have been suffering from my whole life.  I’ve been told I wear my heart on my sleeve and I am too sensitive.  I have been blamed for feeling moody at times when I could not even explain why I was feeling the way I was.  For most of my life, I have felt like the square peg that needed to fit into the round hole, and I thought I was alone.

Surprise!  40 Million adult Americans suffer from these disorders.  Statistically, only 36.9% are receiving treatment.  “Anxiety disorders develop from a complex set of risk factors, including genetics, brain chemistry, personality, and life events.”  So how can you or I be blamed for what we are feeling?

I am starting a series on this internet platform (newclevelandradio.net) to discuss anxiety and depression.  I recently fell back into those confused feelings that have been trying to draw me in.  I am back in therapy and taking medication.  Not only is there a genetic component in my history but brain chemistry as well.  I will also admit life events hit me hard and losing my mother a little over a year ago is still affecting me.  My life changed drastically, and I will share more in our series.

Please contact me at newclevelandradio@gmail.com if you would like to be part of this healing series.

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As 2017 is about to end, I find myself struggling with words.  As a communication’s major and show host on various programs here at newclevelandradio.net, I’m not sure what I should say or not as this year ends and 2018 begins.  This is not the first time I find myself in this situation.  Believe it or not, I dislike confrontation, and therefore I tend to hold back except when I don’t!

I tend to walk on eggshells and not disturb others, yet I agree we all should be able to speak our minds respectfully without being called out for our views or opinions.  However, it only takes one person to read what you (or I may post) on social media, to make us feel as if we should not have said anything at all.  Trying to play fair and be the kind person ‘all the time’ can often make one feel weak and sick inside and out, and I for one need to stop allowing others to shape my feelings.

Just like you, I want better outcomes for all of us as we move forward into the new year and the only way I will succeed is to stop wearing my heart on my sleeve.  If you can tell me how you feel, I should be able to do the same.  Feelings are a belief or an emotional state or reaction to something.  We all have them. Feelings are not right or wrong, they are personal, and until you truly know the person, you will never understand them or be able to walk a mile in their shoes!  It is how we react to those feelings is what sets us apart.

I come to all of you as one year ends and another begins and welcome you to explore your awareness of life and those around you.  Even though we may have much in common until we take the time to stop judging and accept our differences, we will not achieve the happiness we all deserve.  My mother used to tell me, “Make someone happy, and they will make you happy too…”  Well, my momma was not 100% correct.   What she should have said, “Make yourself happy, and when you do others will seek to be happy too!”

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I love the product line – thank you Lucy Rossi Zindroski, Lina – Pasqualina Diamante, and Giovanna Caporossi Mitru, for introducing me to the product line.  And Lucy, thank you for becoming a sponsor at newclevelandradio.net.  Just one use of the product I became a believer and I knew I wanted to be part of this amazing journey with you and so many others.  Now the Business Solutions on the second and fourth Saturday of each month on newclevelandradio.net will feature Rodan+Fields and the building of a successful business.

Rodan+Fields came into my life at the right moment, I decided this past year to challenge myself and care about ME!  It began with choosing to maintain a healthier diet, exercise and prepare for a 5K and to turn my fine lines into smoother, brighter glowing skin. Rodan+Fields is providing me with the opportunity to feel prettier and I now can share this with so many of my friends like Marci Golub and others both men and women who want to feel like the new me.

Lucy, Lina, and Giovanna became my friends before I chose to buy the product and or become a consultant and now I am part of TEAM DARE.  Now, not only do I have a new path to creating new friends, reconnecting with friends and acquaintances from the past, but I have added some excitement to my life.  EXCITEMENT is what helps keep us YOUNG!

I want to encourage everyone who reads this to contact me and ask the simple question WHY? When you do I will schedule a short three-way phone call with either Giovanna, myself and you or Lucy, myself and you and give you the answer.  Also, watch for an invitation to meet up and learn more.  Inbox me on Facebook https://www.facebook.com/kiki1one any time or email me at karenfashionhale@gmail.com

T’was the morning before Christmas and four days since Chanukah Past, and 48 hours until Kwanza as well as other holiday specials to cheer us on (or give us pause to applaud!) It has also been awhile since I’ve taken the time to write a DVasha Series blog. My mother (and my pops) surround me each day. I feel their presence in some manner whether it is a word I use or one I hear someone else say. I see their faces in pictures around my home, but also, they peer out at me as I drive down the road from behind the clouds or as I look out my dining room window I know they are checking in and making sure that I am moving forward (and not just me.)

Did you know we never go back(ward) we are always moving in a forward motion, even when we trip, stumble and fall? We find a way to pick ourselves up and keep trudging through life, and some of us do it with more of an athletic or ballerina ease. However, to gain that ease it takes constant training and re-enforcement and not just from within your core, but from outside, you and I must learn to trust and become a family and return to the basic of living.

Let me return to my family, and how we celebrated Chanukah, it was unlike what I witnessed as I grew up and I became more associated with global society. Our celebration began with home-made decorations, some very crude in design made by children (my brothers and me) at very young ages, and others a bit more sophisticated by mom and dad with real artistic value. However, together they blended in, and our home was festive and the brightness of the holiday lasted eight days plus.

Gifts for Chanukah were just as simple and may have included gelt, money, as little as nickels, dimes and quarters adding up to $1.00. Back in the day receiving a silver dollar to be placed in a safe place for the future was the most precious gift of all. We also got crayons, or a coloring book, or a board game that was meant for the family and upon receiving we all sat around and played for hours until our eyes drooped and we were ushered off to bed. But, momma always made up a batch of potato latkes and some homemade desert often her chocolate chip cookies, or an apple pie, or dad’s favorite chocolate cake. The holiday was never about spending the most or having the biggest and the best; it was family time. (Sometimes family time did bring out the best and the worst of us, but in the end, we always knew, we loved and cared for each other and still do!)

I share this with you today as I think about my momma and pops and ask you to reflect not only on the past but on what you want for yourself and others as you continue to move forward. What will your legacy be? What will your children, nieces, nephews, or friends remember about you?

My parent’s left a legacy for my brothers and me. Words by Harmon, poems written by my father to many will now become part of newclevelandradio.net. It is time to share his words that may change the landscape of the chaos we are living in and help us move forward with ease. You may read his words or chose to ignore them, that is what democracy is all about choice. We need to start making decisions and working as a whole, not as individuals. Bring your options to the forefront and communicate them in a civil way. J Harmon Moss taught me that!

DVasha, I have spoken of her many times, and I will never be able to express enough love for this woman, my mom! I thought she loved my brother Joel more then she loved me, and she wanted me to be a clone of my cousin Gloria Siegel (whom I adored.) But the truth of the matter is, I was blind and did see or hear what she was trying to tell me, she loved deeply, and she loved me too, I just had to open my heart to feel it! Momma taught me to open my heart even though she could be the bigot in the family (sorry mom.) Mom protected herself by speaking out and sometimes offending others, yet never on purpose. I learned as she traveled through the end of her life she was not the secure feisty lady she appeared to be, but she put up a front taking one step forward at a time. I am grateful for the lessons she has left with me.

My legacy to my family – I have not been the perfect mom to my oldest son, Steve. However, I have tried. I love my first born with all my heart and with every breath I take. I have made sacrifices for him that are much different than those for Alex, my youngest son. They are both so different, and yet in many ways, they are clones of each (they may or may not like me saying that.) Both of my boys are my world. We have had our challenges, but as we celebrate this holiday season and move into 2018, I leave them with one thought, LOVE.

L = Live – enjoy life, find the sunshine each day behind the clouds and smile. Find the good in yourself and share it with someone.
O = One – is not alone, you don’t have to be number one or be alone. You have the choice to be who you want to be. You can change yourself at any time. Leave one special sparkle behind, YOU.
V = Vulnerable – we all are, you are! Mistakes are the stepping stones to learning. When you were babies, you tripped and fell before you learned to walk, but you are walking, running and achieving now. You are as vulnerable as the next guy, but you are not alone, and you must keep living.
E = Everyone – feels the same way you do but may express it differently. We all have challenges and obstacles to overcome. That is the vulnerability of life, and if we accept that we don’t have to be the only one and do it alone, we can enjoy life and live.

All I want is LOVE!

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